Friday, May 06, 2005

Letter from a BG


Yay for Friday!

Dear Bloggees, even though we ended on a high note yesterday in our NES, do remember that the story’s only up to spring or 2002. A few things have happened since then, so NES will continue. And meanwhile my life and writing goes on, so there will continue to be interesting stuff to post.

For today, however, instead of proceeding with our NES, I wanted to post excerpts from a letter I received from a BG. This person had given me permission to use the email and will remain anonymous. Although we’ve covered this topic pretty well, I thought this letter may also help some readers out there. Here goes:

. . . I wanted to comment on your blog. The last few posts about spiritual warfare is so where I am at right now. [You wrote:] “Are you willing to give up that sense of “being no good” at writing? Are you really willing to renounce it and to claim the power I want to give you for doing the job I have called you to?”

That was like a slap in the face. I mean I have known that I've been under attack, but I guess I didn't realize that I allowed myself to wallow in it. Reading that post made me cry. I prayed the prayer you did. Also prayed "I believe, help me with my unbelief." Since reading it I have been reading and quoting all those Psalms you mentioned in the previous post.

I've been so desperate to finish my book, and I would believe that voice telling me I couldn't and even if I did it would be a terrible book. That I was just wasting my time and playing with this writing thing, etc. And the sad thing about listening to all that is I really do believe that I have a talent for writing. But all that unworthiness creeps in there. What's even sadder is God told me in a dream once, that I was a writer. Ok, don't laugh but in the dream I was talking in an instant messenger with God (I love my instant messengers, LOL) and God was typing all this stuff but I kept scrolling back up to read this one line and it said, "You're the writer you are given permission for freedom." Never was for sure what all of it meant. But I loved that 1. God said I was a writer and 2. that there was freedom involved.

I have had a few people praying about the attacks, but do you realize how many Christians don't even believe in that?? Now I don't think that everything bad that happens is an attack. I think once you have had an attack you can certainly recognize it the next time.

The attacks are on more than just the writing front. Satan has started attacking my friendships. And headaches. Oh my. I haven't had a migraine in 6 years. Had one on Thursday. Every day since then I have had tension headaches, bad ones. Now normally I would just think something was odd going on but with all the attacks, me getting close to doing what I believe God wants me to do, starting to believe in myself a little, etc, that is just to big of a coincidence.

Hope you all take encouragement from this person’s email. If you’re not having similar problems yourself, you might recognize them in a friend’s life and better know how to pray for that person.

Check back Monday, BGs. More’s a-comin’. Promise.


5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Once again, thanks for addressing this issue. Am I really not the only one who thinks she is "not good enough" to become a writer? It seems that this is more common that I realized, and one of the enemy's preferred methods of attack to keep us from spreading the Good News through writing. Okay, now that we're onto him, what are we going to do about it? Renounce the lies and GET WRITING! I love this blog. Thanks for taking the time to write it Brandilyn. It is so encouraging to me!

Hope Wilbanks said...

Thank you for sharing this. I have been going through similar things myself, and will probably share my experience in my interview this morning. The thing we don't "get" sometimes is that "the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds." (2 Cor. 10:4) Even more important, we have the power within us, as God's kids, to fight these battles. So the question becomes, do we always do this? Do we recognize when it is a spiritual battle, and STOP and pray against these spirits? When we begin to do this...OH MY! Such power and victory in Jesus!!

Unknown said...

I needed this today. Hallelujah! I pray for all to put on the shield of God and let's get after it.
God has many messages he has commissioned us to put out there.
Let's be bold and write on.

Writing to see what the end gon' be,
Dee

christianfiction.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

I am praying for the person who is undergoing the spiritual battle; and we all should. Scripture reminds us that "no weapon formed against us will prosper." We need to keep that in our minds when we experience attacks from the enemy. God is looking out for us, please don't forget that. Also pray POWERFUL prayers, not lukewarm or halfhearted ones. Pray with strength, and confidence. Our Father will bless us so that we can be a blessing to others.

Unknown said...

Great post. The one thing I've noticed about every writer I've studied is that they were all willing to keep pluggin away, no matter how bad they thought they were. We've got to be willing to say (out loud) "I'm a good writer." It's not boasting, it's affirmation of a gift. We should still glorify God with that gift, but we've got to accept it. I've tried to give up this dream, but when I did, a part of me died. Your dreams aren't intangible, they're as real as your skin. I'm so thankful that I know a few people, though all electronically, that are living through this as well. I wouldn't trade this for the world.